[on valentine's day weekend jodi, julia, amie (+ little arwen) & i hopped on the short flight to bangkok for a weekend of wandering, market shopping, coffees, eating (yes, that IS a 'bacon shop' street stall you see there) & all around ladies fun. bangkok is so close & yet feels dramatically different from phnom penh - it was a wonderful change of scenery & weekend of relaxing.]
30 October 2013
[perspective: the view from our porch as a thunderstorm rolls in ]
because it seemed that the days had been coming in frantic rushes. there were details to remember, a farewell party to coordinate, daniel's show going late, late, late cutting into precious sleep, arranging babysitters, a saturday board meeting to chair. round & round she goes.
& i sat in the tuk tuk & exhaled deeply. mind racing, i thought:
"we've been living in survival mode ever since cedar was born. when will it end?"
& then i remembered.
i remembered the woman with the recycling cart & her newborn slung in a scarf between the bars that she pushed, walking the streets asking for others' trash., unable to rest - where was her maternity leave?
i remembered the boys huddled at the bus stop sniffing the glue bottle. so young & beautiful & already longing to be numb.
i remembered our own ming kohm & how she had to leave her tiny daughters to go work in the rice fields. how she heard their cries when a neighbor lied & told them that she was never returning. how she showed me how she would bind her breasts so she could go the whole day without feeding her baby.
i looked down & remembered that the coffee i was drinking as i whizzed through the city costs the daily wage of the construction workers i watch from my kitchen window.
i have never, not ever, known what it is like to live in survival mode.
sometimes perspective is like a swift slap to the face.
[but the good kind, like the kind that snaps you out of navel gazing & jolts you into gratitude]
29 October 2013
10 October 2013
30 September 2013
10 September 2013
it turns out our sweet sparrow tricked us with her laid back infant demeanor! we called her sleepy sparrow for the first 4 months of her life, because she always seemed to be sleeping. & then we called her smiley sparrow for the next 8 months because she always seemed to be smiling wide. & now we've taken to calling her our spirited sparrow because she is a determined & defiant little lady.
some memories of our sparrow at the one year mark.
- gets around by bum-scooting, never crawling
- first word "jhat" from "chin-jhat" [khmer for "gecko"]
- most happy when being held by mama or yay-yay [ming kohm]
- sleeping through the night [...finally!]
- loves bananas, oatmeal & noodles
- makes the owl "whoo" face a lot
- only one tooth
- loves to grab mama's glasses whenever she has the chance
- we often wake up to find her standing up quietly looking out the window by our bed & she loves to look over our balcony onto the street below to watch cambodian life go by
- still known for her big, wide open smiles
Posted by amanda + daniel at 22:17